to live or not to live

I have avoided writing this post because the most pressing thing on my mind is the attempted suicide of one of our teenage girls. And at this point, it might have been a successful one - but she's still alive, in a non-responsive state.

and so of course, there are a myriad of questions that accompany this: why? What happened? What triggered this? Did I see it coming but ignore the signs? What made it different from other times of stress? Where is she now? Right now? She's not dead - she's not alive. So where is she? Is she groggy? Fighting? Watching?

On a whole different battlefield are her family members - fighting and praying for her to return to them.

Self-Harm Awareness Month - suddenly it became personal.